pink

2012-02-10T20:11:00.001+08:00

I should start making up my mind & heart.
I need to start knowing what I like,
and not only what I dont like.

2012-01-28T23:41:00.001+08:00

You know the way how people holds a space in your heart?
I've got one of that too.
Someone that's not officially in a relationship with you,
but holds a special place there.
& it kinda suck actually.
coz it hinders how new people can't have the whole of your heart.
And you'll always always,
have a soft spot for them,
regardless of the things they do,
both good or bad,
they still stay firmly in your heart.
What do you call these people?
Soulmates?
Bestfriends?
Mr/Ms Right?
Someone enlighten me on this.

2012-01-02T05:37:00.001+08:00

The kind of overwhelming feeling.
You cry, and you don't even know why.
I woke up crying,
and I just feel damn sucky on the inside.

2011-12-10T21:09:00.001+08:00

I'll never forget that exact moment.
Just as I passed the cd I made to bro,
and he hugged me real tight, and said thank you, thank you so much.
Then he started to cry, and whimpered
"I'm sorry, sorry for scolding you"
I said "it's okay laa"
"sorry"
And we just hugged real tight for a minute or so.
Brother cried so much, and I wiped his tears,
with my 2 index fingers, and said don't cry!
I will miss my brother so damn much.

2011-11-26T00:02:00.001+08:00

After so much betrayals and lies.
would you ever still believe in the good of people?
what would your measure of genuinely be then now?

You know, the kind of feeling,
where you got betrayed so many times,
where you've been told so many lies at,
and you just don't know how to feel.
and you just don't know what else to do?
This.is.the.exact.feeling.
Life's like a movie.
Wait, more than a movie.
At least movie's got a tinge of reality.
This, nothing. So surreal.

2011-11-20T21:48:00.001+08:00

this is tearing me apart.
i hate this sense of guilt.
i hate this sense of frustration.
i hate this whole issue.
i should be alone, alone.

2011-11-19T13:54:00.001+08:00

Pretty annoyed.
People that I can't click with,
I can never come to a consensus with them.

2011-11-17T01:15:00.001+08:00

Had enough of these stupid emotions.
all these annoying and feeling disappointed and guilty-for-nothing feelings,
I just want to liberate myself,
head somewhere nice,
delude myself in some fantasy or tranquility.
swimming does in part have that effect on me.
So, I shall swim really soon.
Just 2 more weeks this shit is going to end.
Goodnight people of the earth.

2011-11-16T22:49:00.001+08:00

you broke my trust for you,
you earn it back slowly.
this much of trust I had in you,
gone, gone.

2011-11-14T20:01:00.001+08:00

While the others have got their books¬es,
I'm gonna use my brains for the exams!
LIKEABOSS, HELL YEAH~

2011-11-07T23:33:00.001+08:00

Almost teared when mummy came home.
On the verge of breaking down, and I was hoping
that mum would come back tonight.
Seeing her, hearing her voice would make me pick myself up again!
and she really did came back!
this is so damn tiring,
and it's not as if I studied massively,
but the stress, the routine, the content,
Is killing me slowly but surely.
I am drained, period.

2011-10-26T14:05:00.001+08:00

I'm bulletproof, I'm bulletproof.
That's what I'm drilled everyday here.
The place they call it home,
but I guess it's no longer the same anymore.
being forced to live in such a mature family,
prevents you from acting your age.
the generational gap eats you up,
you're judged and faulted for almost everything.
That is where I live and breathe in.

It's the final lap now.
I get no support, but instead words of aggravation.
"prove me wrong with your results then"
"why do I always see you with your phone?"
"have you been studying?"
I really hate how reverse psychology is being used on me.
and I hate to say this, but I really hate how others,
can have it easy for them.
A conducive studying environment at home,
a heartwarming,loving and supportive family,
and their own will to do well.
This ain't just about results here.
it's like I'm fighting my own war,with the odds 1:1million.
And that 1 million includes MY FAMILY.
so how awesome is that?
I'm studying so hard everyday to prove my loved ones WRONG.
facing hurling words at me whenever they feel like.
they call this home?
I'm slowly disliking this place more and more.
I want to be alone so very badly.

sunshine

2011-10-21T16:30:00.001+08:00

still as interesting as day one.
lighting up every single day of mine.
hehehehehehe heheheheheh.
and I can't explain what kinda feeling is this.

2011-10-18T11:32:00.000+08:00

im emotional, too emotional at times.
i have to admit to that.
i hate it.
i hate the cycle of making friends.
coz you never know if they are genuinely sincere
second, you never know if they are gonna leave
i get too attached to people easily.
very very easily.
i talk to almost everyone.
and when i get particularly closer to someone,
i get "attached" to them,
and when they leave, somehow,
i get too overwhelmed by it and i'll have a bleak as ever view of the cycle.
i hate this.
sometimes i wonder,
why cant people be like me, (not being ego here)
why cant people be brave enough to be real.
this is taking a toll on me seriously.
sick of shit.

saturdayyyy

2011-10-15T23:05:00.001+08:00

grape and apple juice! (:

2011-10-13T14:01:00.001+08:00

I would want to believe that one day
someone would fall head over heels with me
enough to want to marry me.
:(

2011-10-10T23:48:00.001+08:00

crying like a wuss now.
came home after night lecture from six to nine,
and was damn motivated to do work,
and happy at how I got back my drive to work hard for this stretch,
until I came home to the place with zero support,
zero support to see me through this really tough lap,
Sis been on this 40episode serial
and doesn't realize how distracting is it for me, and then suddenly,
I remembered what bro said to me,
"how you know you won't fail again?"
thanks.

You know that kind of feeling,
in which you fight so hard and realized you're all alone?
and how the school principal said that you should do it with your family's support,
and I have none?
I feel so alone, very alone.
crying non stop and it breaks my heart.
well, it's like a stretchable rubber,
It stretches so much, that one day it will just snap.
I hope I won't snap, but it seems like it will sooner or later.

2011-10-09T19:31:00.002+08:00

great day out with sylvie darling.
church in the morning then a chick flick with the chick!
comfy and happy feeling!
and we're so similar in various ways, and that one particular one we always harp on.
ate like a cow today, literally a cow.
so much that no one can believe due to my sheer size.
hate it :/
well, im learning how to feel more comfy with my height already.
reason to substantiate that, i bought flats. yes flats.
if you know me, i get rather insecure without heels.
coz the world's literally above me.

believe it or not,
after my 2 long days of weekend,
i cant wait to jump back at my books,
coz i just want to get over and done with them.
"i want you to study" by sylvie hit me real hard.
and motivates me to do well!
she cant wait to have all the fun with me after As.
love love her very very bery much.
toodles folks, have a great week ahead.

changes to be made

2011-10-03T00:10:00.001+08:00

me, myself and I ..
need to learn to speak softer
need to learn to stop yaking
need to be less gung-ho
need to learnt to keep my comments to myself
need to be more demure
need to be less sloppy
need to learn to walk properly
need to learn to sit properly
need to be thrifty
sis said i need to behave coz i behave like a auntie.
Le Sigh.

2011-10-01T21:41:00.001+08:00

want to do covers so badlyyyyyyy
le sigh.

2011-09-30T00:20:00.001+08:00

you can never please everyone in your life.

2011-09-29T19:11:00.001+08:00

have no idea why do i fall for someone so easily. And I find it annoying.
Coz people don't like me back :(
That's sad right, but then again it prolly would reflect how soft & vulnerable I am on the inside.
I always knew what are the exact things I would say to someone I really love and what are the things I would do for them. But I guess I haven't met one. Not complaining here, but just something for myself, why is it that I can see the good in others, but they don't. food for thought. Bye.

september

2011-09-28T06:36:00.001+08:00

lyrics in the middle of the night
sketches to blow my woes away.
even if it means nothing to you,
I'm showered with euphoria already.

live it

2011-09-24T00:49:00.002+08:00

one of those nights where ive decided to spend some time "reading"
yeah, and that means reading blogs & what not online.
and ive always had the same conclusion from these
multiple perspectives and lives that i read on.
one life, live it.

there's so many things i want to do.
and of course, so many things i've never had guts to do.
and now, ive finally decided to kill off hesitation.
but of course, couple with wise decisions.
dozens of romantic antics i want to do.
(and ive yet to find anyone to)
dozens of scary heart dropping adventures
dozens of weird dares that friends would come up with
dozens of events/things to try before you die
so many, too much.
give, love and cherish.
goodnight folks.

pricky

2011-09-19T04:22:00.001+08:00

dont even understand why am I feeling this way?
Would you feel pricky, if someone you thought you just got closer to, and how that particular someone would prolly be a friend to keep for life, and at an insance, this particular person comes close to that friend, and makes everything seemed so bleak & changed?

phrases to keep me going

2011-09-18T23:32:00.001+08:00

"No matter what, just don't give up. Keep working on it. Cause "give up" just don't work."
hehehehehehehehehehehehehehe.

2011-09-17T23:10:00.000+08:00

cant keep my hands off tumblr.
why oh why.
need to persevere.
oh God, give me strength.

2011-09-17T20:57:00.003+08:00

final two papers on monday and tuesday
im so not feeling the urge to mug for international history.
so dry, and ive no idea where to start.
77 pages of notes to read. Ugh, distasteful.
been lazing my entire way away.

so, things haven't been of much smooth for me
or rather my family in particular.
major, impactful changes are about to happen
well, humans hate change right.
but thats the only constant too. i need to remember that.
prolly half of my plans got to be put off further.
ive got to start fending on my own soon.
coz the burden on my mum is a really huge one,
and it pains me to burden her any further.

meanwhile, ive been passing my days happier.
and i dont know if there's a valid reason to it.
nonetheless, im happy and blessed everyday.
back to my books now.
embrace happiness and cherish, folks.
toodles.

2011-09-15T19:46:00.001+08:00

Will never be good enough for anyone.

a place they call home

2011-09-14T23:09:00.001+08:00

Got shouted for being immature & asking me to grow up coz I wore sis' clothes.
Now, I just got reprimanded for coughing & not taking care of myself.
Oh great, they call this home?

(:

2011-09-12T00:36:00.001+08:00

sdfsxcggfopgtklcvioeno
- a word that totally can't be read yet filled with anger.

oblivious

2011-09-11T20:31:00.001+08:00

been having this feeling that there are friends out there whom secretly dislikes me or hate me.
Oh well, I don't live to please anyone, and I can't and won't please anyone (:
No offense intended. In case you're wondering (but I doubt anyone reads),
I've got the blogger app on my phone! That explains why I'm posting so much more often! ^^

anxiety

2011-09-10T22:59:00.001+08:00

to be honest,
I'm damn nervous about tomorrow's drama assignment presentation.
because I haven't been able to observe anyone for 7days straight, & I don't want to make up anything :(
plus I'm having Prelims on Monday.
Oh gosh, to go or not to go.
I'm really serious about this whole thing, but yet, sigh.
God, help me with this.

things that keep me going

2011-08-10T22:16:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 21st SHEENA!!

2011-07-12T20:44:00.003+08:00

May an abundance of blessings shower over you,

and it'll be a breakthrough year for you!

our friendship runs forever and ever! (:

please continue to remain brown so that i can tease you!

will never forget all the times we spent together,

lots more birthday to celebrate together toooooo!

you're one that i'll always be there for!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2011-07-09T23:09:00.002+08:00

I've come to realised,

how amusing it is,

when you start to miss,

the people/things that you thought werent important.

And vice versa,

there's times where,

you just miss someone so much,

that it hurts,

and the person on the other side wouldnt know.

life's a whole chunk of ups and downs.

to some,

days grow longer,

nights grow shorter,

to some,

nights grow longer,

days grow shorter.

// its been a really heavy one tonight

im out of here.

2011-06-29T16:37:00.002+08:00

writing this while i wait for the photos to be uploaded!

just wanna include an entry here for the best time of my life.

went for a stayover at kerrie's twentyfirst birthday bash at the chalet

it was awesome possum fabulously fun.

though it was exams, the following monday,

i really had real fun along with jacklyn & those bunch.

felt genuinely happy there, didnt had to feel judge or inferior,

because everyone accepts everyone there.

drank alot alot the first night & my headache was bothering me

the whole entire night! finally crashed by 5am,

while the rest had mahjong downstairs &

my dear jacklyn went home to rest.

had a mini heart to heart talk early next morning with those

that woke up, it felt really nice.

coz i barely know them for about few weeks,

and its always nice hearing their stories and background.

totally let my hair down with all of them there.

went wild wild wet on the second day on borrowed swimwear,

we totally had a wonderful splash there,

until two 3 malaysians decided to annoy us in a weird way.

then we had the finale, CROSS DRESSING THEMED BARBECUE

we laughed a whole hell lot!

then we walked to e hub for arcade, jasmine strut her stuff at the ddr machine,

while the rest race at daytona & hoops.

cabbed home before midnight! (:

missing all of them so much,

though i may not really exactly be in their clique,

everything seemed so wonderful with them around.

within them, i see real true loyal friendship,

those friends that would stick around a lifetime.

im glad, im glad and im glad.

2011-05-08T20:02:00.002+08:00

the picture explains my post here!

coz i went surfing with sissy yesterday at wavehouse!!

flow rider yo! its been a long time since me & sis really gone out

and i think it was really fun!

though she was texting/bbm-ing half the time -.-

And i accidentally deleted one of her nicest picture, HAH.

but well, the point is, im aching all over everywhere!

neck, arms, back! but hell yeah it was really fun fun fun!

shall post again laterrrrr.

2011-03-24T01:14:00.002+08:00

easy come, easy go.

there's so many instances,

we just encounter encounters without feelings.

we go through motions just for the sake of getting over and done with

why don't we, just for once,

try to use our heart to feel the world,

and realise that every one has the need to be loved.

2011-01-08T23:58:00.001+08:00

And school's gonna start on monday.

I hope 2011 would be good, though i know its gonna be damn tough

(due to academics)

sidenote, I don't wish to fall in love this year,

coz once i do, i fall right straight deep in,

and never easy to get back up on my feet.

to be honest, i lost all faith with the word 'love'

I've been trying so hard to get back to my happy self.

And it took me long enough to realize,

its the courage, conviction & perception one must have towards happiness.

you'll need the silence to start feeling again.

you'll need to be alone to straighten out your thoughts.

that's where you're sane enough to even feel your emotions.

I need to start being more productive this year.

Its an important year for me.

All the best to me and to you folks.

Happy 2011.

2011-01-08T23:47:00.002+08:00

So, the new year began with my birthday again.

spent my birthday with brother & his girlfriend.

pretty much different, far from what i expected.

but it was nice, having to know my brother loves me loads.

Hmm, really miss my friends very much,

and was pretty sad that i couldn't spend it with them :(

well, its weird to call them up and ask

if they wanna spend my birthday with me right?

I truly miss them, and i hope they miss me too :/

bought a whole lot of christmas presents, but yet given out.

i really really miss my friends :(

2010-12-26T22:35:00.001+08:00

and i keep going back.

2010-12-23T16:33:00.002+08:00

i'm starting to ask myself.

sleepless nights that they don't even know.

2010-12-05T20:54:00.002+08:00

promised myself something a few days back,

and i'm starting to realise how awful it is.

let's just play pretend

2010-12-03T09:01:00.003+08:00

okay, let's pretend this never happened
like i never runaway into the blackness
now let's pretend it was all-good
like i didn't live starring in a notebook
like i did the things i probably knew i should
but i didn't maybe that's why they call it the hood
now let's pretend that i ain't got a name

2010-11-19T15:57:00.002+08:00

I need to start finding out what my heart really burns for.

something that i will not give up doing till the end of time.

something that i would smile while doing and be truly happy for.

With every transition, there's a price to it.

I guess i'm just in that season of transition now.

A new year is approaching and its yet again a time for a revamp.

Rethink, re-plan, re-focus on things that i got to do.

Perk up, brace up and be happier.

Never know

2010-11-08T22:45:00.003+08:00

There's always a stark difference in responses for the new & old.

People abandon, and forsake the old for new.

People adore the new, and abhors the old.

Life's like that, the fascination with new.

I can't bravely say that I'm not a victim of the above,

but yet i do still embrace the choice to evaluate the real value,

despite it being old or new.

Don't really like the feeling of having all hopes dashed.

hopes that you've been pinning your all on.

just silently, it seeps away, entirely dashed and gone.

i don't like this, but i'll have to accept it.

Goodnight folks.

{ No Other Way - Jack Johnson }

2010-11-08T01:09:00.002+08:00

time flies.

i can still clearly remember last year's today,

how different.

2010-11-04T00:08:00.000+08:00

A little love - Fiona Fung

2010-11-03T22:08:00.003+08:00

Everything's like the weather.

it's either damn cold, or damn hot.

anything else that's moderate, won't usually last long.

we're all fighting hard in this race of life.

too much on my mind tonight.

2010-10-31T23:10:00.003+08:00

so yeah, the real deal starts tomorrow ☺

i can totally imagine how i'll feel walking into the hall for my paper.

freezing cold, and silently competitive.

well, though its not mentioned, but we're going for a war,

a war against each other, for the favorite Alphabet

that you would want on your certificate.

hoping and praying for the best of course,

and when its over, half the battle is won (:

i've got all the H.O.P.E! ♥

(Having Only Positive Expectation)

a shot of pressure

2010-10-28T20:45:00.002+08:00

i'm having a really bad throbbing headache now.
guess im too exhausted.
whipped up dinner for myself today, hell tiring.
and i've yet to do the dishes and iron my clothes.
so annoyingg. i wonder how those people do it.
a levels is sucking up my life.
so much stuffs to do every single day,
and i can hardly sleep in peace.
i can even dream about solutions
to the math question that i was working on before i sleep.
yes, that's the extent of hardcore-ness.
i'm ranting here, coz i seriously need to.
i'm so exhausted but im going to keep on going.
official chinese paper on monday, save me.
then there's oral presentation, i&r submission and ,math paper.
and and and and and and
I'M DONE FOR THE YEAR.
i want to go tanning at sentosa.
i want to have hotdog&meatballs at ikea.
okay, that's not important.
off to work, bye.

the final lap

2010-10-23T21:52:00.002+08:00

a levels heating up.

i'm gonna chase,

i'm gonna run,

i'm gonna fight,

i will get through this.

i can do this.

and i won't ever give up.

2010-10-21T20:34:00.003+08:00

Fear has a nature of attraction, its magnetic.

If you possess fear,

you're gonna attract that which you are fearful of.

But if you have faith,

whatever you believe, all things are made possible.

2010-10-19T22:50:00.003+08:00

Its going to be a whole new start.

a brand new phase,

a brand new set of mentality.

its time for a change, since change has always been a constant.

Brace up, let's head for our dreams starting from tonight.

everyday i see my dream

2010-10-07T22:20:00.001+08:00

23 days to A'Level Mother Tongue

30 days to A'Level Project Work Oral Presentation

33 days to A'Level H1 Maths.

reminder of the day

2010-10-06T22:15:00.000+08:00

2010-10-02T21:37:00.003+08:00

I still believe that a part of this world is not all superficial.

Because i simply hate how everyone else judges a book by its cover.

Its what inside that counts,

Its the inside that keeps you alive within you.

Believe me, everything else on the outside would fade away with time.

And that's when reality hits.

where i want to be

2010-09-20T00:44:00.000+08:00

(credits: opalineskies)

2010-09-17T22:17:00.001+08:00

pretty productive friday.

(Y)

i've been a good girl all day long.

Days grow longer and nights grow shorter

2010-09-11T23:15:00.001+08:00

2010-09-10T21:53:00.002+08:00

serious studying in progress.

all the best to me, myself and i

got to get real serious and focus.

procrastination shall go to exile from now on.

bye sloth, bye fatigue.

i'm going to mug overnight tonight.

let's hope i'll stay awake and it'll be effective.

no photos of my current boring life though.

2010-09-05T23:10:00.001+08:00

I need a hug, anyone?

2010-09-05T19:54:00.002+08:00

one week of hols next week.

but its ain't hols at all.

coz exams follow the week after.

and the supposed week of hols would consist of mock exams

every single day except friday.

i foresee a very intensive and stressed weeks ahead.

emotionally,mentally & physically.

need a mani/pedi and facial right after exams.

since i worked hard, i do deserve a treat for myself i guess.

i don't know.

i don't like my esteem these days.

its not doing well.

i wished ...

2010-08-28T22:35:00.001+08:00

2010-08-22T23:23:00.000+08:00

Say no to PROCRASTINATION.

fireworks @ MBS

2010-08-10T11:25:00.006+08:00

2010-08-04T20:01:00.003+08:00

i've got a sudden urge to make a list. so i shall.

i want to head to the beach to tan.

(coz i'm turning white, no no no)

i want to chill at starbucks for fun

i want to ice skate

i want to swim

(haven't swam for ages!)

i want to buy beautiful fondants for cupcakes

i want to get films

i want to have ice cream everyday.

i want to go the New Zealand.

( bro's NZ photos is making me drooool!)

hahahahahahaha.

so many i-wants. and i have yet listed i-need(s)

okay byee.

power of words

2010-08-03T22:35:00.003+08:00

i tend to have 2 conflicting thoughts in my head all the time.

like being ugly and pretty simultaneously,

being tall and short simultaneously,

being motivated and discourage simultaneously,

and hungry but full simultaneously.

And amidst all, of course i've got to fight out the more dominant ones.

So tonight, i'm fighting against my sloth,

and i shall and i will and i must complete my work.

do.not.procrastinate.anymore.

2010-07-27T22:14:00.002+08:00

as the year end approaches,

school's getting suckier ( no such word, i know )

teacher's demeaning words,

teacher's discouragements

don't ever make anything else better.

i'm praying real hard, for God to give me the strength to hang in there.

I got to, I have to, and I must hang in there.

come on, vicki, you can do this (:

2010-07-25T21:24:00.001+08:00

This is what I love:

lying on the grass

under the tress on a summer's day,

listening to the murmur of water,

watching the clouds float across the sky,

and feel the serenity of the world.

2010-07-12T00:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEENA! (:

have a blast on your lovely birthday.

(: (: (: (: (: (:

love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

2010-07-11T21:53:00.003+08:00

{ my nerd mode table }

exams are over. finally over.

but school officially starts tomorrow.

and chinese a'level oral exam tomorrow.

and i haven't had enough of holidays,

oh well, who will ever have enough of them right.

shit, i lost my train of thoughts. oh well.

i'll come back and post more later!

2010-07-04T22:45:00.003+08:00

last paper on wednesday.

don't really know what to do right after the paper.

boys will hang out with boys to eat/soccer/rugby

girls will hang out with girls for movie/shopping.

attached girls/boys will go out with their girl/boyfriends.

and the next category would be me.

me going out with, i have no idea who.

putting school and exams aside.

don't really wish to talk about how's things going for me.

coz from that you can already infer, sorta.

all i really really feel like doing now,

is to lie on the beach, and listen to the sea waves.

some may share the same thoughts,

and some may think im absurd/weird.

its okayyyyyyyyyy.

2010-07-02T19:24:00.002+08:00

alohaaaaaaaaaa.

and i've got a good news to share!

bro's working on my site alreadyy,

can't wait for it to be ready.

but the funniest thing is that mum wanna join in the biz as well.

HAHAHAH cupcakes and fragrances&cosmetics CLASH.

(: please await for my good news.

one more paper to go and i'm done with exams!

2010-06-16T20:44:00.003+08:00

brother's friends are coming over every single night

to watch the daily matches of world cup.

and there's definitely pros and cons to it.

life's treating me a little better,

and i don't ever want school to start. Ugh.

bye folks, off to enjoy the fabulous weather.

2010-06-10T21:17:00.003+08:00

life's tough & boring & sad

all we have to do is to fight it through

but what if all we've left is our mere weak bodies and mind

sometimes, at random points of the day,

i'll just suddenly breakdown and cry.

i don't know why, but i feel so alone.

very very very alone.

no matter how hard i try, end of it, i get zero.

but i'm still hanging there.

Le Sighzxxzzxxzxzzxzxzxzxz

the party won't start till I walk in

2010-06-10T21:06:00.003+08:00

party night tomorrow with cookies. whooooooo yeahhh.

i shall try to put my stress aside for a while,

and let my hair down down down down.

its been a while since i really dressed up to head out.

but then again, i don't really have much awesometastic clothes :\

so i'm building sandcastles in the air air air.

alright, enough of my shits.

this week had been kinda productive and fruitful,

and i hope the weeks to come would be too.

going for my sinus specialist on monday.

pray that i won't get operated for treatment,

and those pills please better work ((:

and and and sheena just got her pay. HEHEHE.

and bought me polaroid!!!!!!!!!

love her to the max :D she's so nice right.

now i have my lovely lumix and polaroid!

i'm the happiest girl on earth ( for now luh :P )

heh, you know humans can't be satisfied rightttt.

PS: I NEED A NEW PHONE DESPERATELY DESPERATE.

and watch this space for more new updatessss on my (hopefully) eventful life

2010-06-05T18:29:00.002+08:00

back from pre u sem yesterday,

it was mind-blowing, inspiring, fun-filled and totally awesome!

( minus the court shoes and rumored ghost part )

heh heh.

i'm eating my all time favorite tamago sushi!

i'm a happy girl ((:

and the awesome photo above all thanks to my very awesome camera!

2010-05-31T23:22:00.002+08:00

Day 1
settling into prince george's residences.
admin, team building.
i love alyssa's D450!!
( blogged with the given lenovo tablet screen notebook! )

departures

2010-05-23T22:40:00.002+08:00

So after sheena's grandpa's death,

whom the wake i attended on last tuesday.

i attended my own 2nd uncle's wake today.

oh well. i hate departures, like really.

the first thing that came to my mind when i go the news was,

" why is everyone leaving me? "

and it shook me quite a bit.

i guess i'm pretty alright,except for being emotional during the wake.

apparently all aunties and uncle cried pretty much every 1 hr interval.

( my dad has got like 8-9 siblings )

on a side note,

i really can't get enough of weekends! :(

and i'm back on retainers which equals to pain.

need to fix dental appointment really soonnnn.

Oh oh, i'll be an introvert in school tomorrow.

coz fitz won't be around for her doc appointment.

let's hope monday won't treat me too bad.

yes i hope.

2010-05-21T16:06:00.000+08:00

sleeping no longer makes me feel better.

everyone except me

2010-05-21T15:52:00.003+08:00

okay, hiatus on twitter just made everything worse.

coz i feel so outdated and disconnected with the world.

hiatus from twitter was supposed to teach me to shut up.

but now, i just found out that, hiatus on twitter also made me cry.

ah wells.

life is meant to be full of ups and downs.

and now now now is the down period of my life.

why can't i be happy just for a day.

like just for a day

just for a day

just for a day.

why must everything go wrong and sad for me.

why do i always feel so bloody freaking alone.

for all i ever know, no one bothers anyway.

and tyvm, the construction noises downstairs is not helping my mood any better.

from now on, i'll be a very different vicki.

bye.

2010-05-19T21:58:00.002+08:00

well, i've officially not tweeted for 1 day.

and my reason for the hiatus on twitter is,

just so that i take more responsibility for the words i speak.

alot of times, we just blabber things off our mind and not bearing in mind

the consequences that we have on people.

so i'm learning how to keep my mouth shut more,

and till i'm more prepared to do just that, i'll not tweet.

{ more of like a punishment for myself i guess }

my week's been pretty awful so far i guess?

i really really hate school now.

but then again, i can't exactly hate school,

if not how else am i supposed to take my As and get to the Uni right.

so putting aside the i-hate-school emotions,

i guess i'm pretty much okay.

except that i've got like extreme mood swings along the day and the week.

so i'm like some crazy bitch roaming around.

i've got so many things to do.

so much things on my mind.

ugh. and sleep is never ever enough.

and i always always always misuse my saturdays.

and i'll have difficulties meeting deadlines for assignments/projects.

i need to have more discipline.

more more more more more, like chips more.

( okay not funny and not in any relevance )

let's try to sort this whole shit out.

and i hope my weekends will make things better.

( but i doubt so, coz its busy busy weeks ahead )

then again, i shall remain hopeful! :D

Feeling damn UGH today. And I can't blog properly on my itouch!!!!!!

2010-05-19T08:32:00.000+08:00

It's time tt I learn tt silence is golden

2010-05-18T11:55:00.000+08:00

2010-05-14T23:51:00.003+08:00

had a blast tonight with cellgroup.

had teppanyaki dinner at home with them!

that was $60 worth of food.

and 18 people in total!

so basically, each person only pays $3.40!!

free flow of food + drinks.

lovely ain't it!

so much more more more worth it than to have steamboat outside.

sliced chicken, sliced pork, sliced beef, meatballs, fishballs

fishcakes, chukawa, golden mushrooms, cod fish fillet

prawns, egg tofu and scallop with mushroom soup

and many many more, i can't even remember!!

everyone should have a teppanyaki grill plate at home!

i baked cupcakes for cgl's birthday toooo!

i will post up photos in next post.

meanwhile, i shall indulge myself in the world of aircon (:

* side note, mum's leaving for KL till monday.

boringggggg. wished i could go with her and shop!!

love the dresses there can, only 8bucks for a dress.

hell cheap cheap cheap :D

im so desperate for my june holidays already.

like really, seriously, really, seriously.

and oh, i need to remember that exams is 12days away.

dang oh dang.

2010-05-14T23:24:00.000+08:00

departures are devastating.

some day i'll make these

2010-05-11T09:43:00.006+08:00

So many baking supplies to get!

baking cups, sprinkles and new piping tips!
i really want the cupcake stand! the 3 tier one!
:(

now let's drool over pretty pretty cupcakes baked by professionals!

Red velvet cupcake

the decor details are so neat!
someday, i'll open my very own bakery!!
dying to get those pretty pretty sprinkles and candied tops!
:D

2010-05-10T21:56:00.001+08:00

its all part of growing up.

2010-05-09T23:25:00.000+08:00

Tell me about your choice, and how will it affect your work performance!

2010-05-09T21:06:00.000+08:00

happiest sunday i have ever had in the month of May

❤

2010-05-08T22:58:00.001+08:00

they say there's power in proclamation

i am tall.

i like to be funny

2010-05-05T23:16:00.001+08:00

i secretly wished that my bag will follow me by itself.

so that i don't have to carry it around.

{ i think this is the funniest thing today that i typed }

2010-05-05T20:23:00.003+08:00

pre u seminar rehearsal worn me out :/

but its the best part of the whole day i guess.

just went to get my pearl milk tea!

yay, its for me to survive the long long night tonight.

and hopefully i don't blank out on my work halfway

and decide to head to bed early,

coz that's what i've always been doing. heh.

weather is an ass. humidity level at its peak, gosh.

this is the perfect time to use " sweltering heat ".

HAHAHAHAH.

i'm lazy to post up mother's day photos, another day alrights.

this is sucha boring and uninteresting post.

goodbye folks, better post tmr okay!

and pardon me for a moment of self-glory for a minute.

coz i look tallER here! HEH.

2010-05-03T21:24:00.003+08:00

was supposed to catch movie tonight,

but it got cancelled.

and mum asked me out to join her for drinks instead.

no moooood for drinks.

coz its about me changed up and all psyched up to head out,

then when i called, she said its cancelled.

and she didn't even informed me beforehand.

goshh.

its only 925pm and i'm damn bored.

i doubt i'll be able to sleep tonight :((

my love for potatoes

2010-05-03T18:27:00.005+08:00

so its a humid monday, and

( coz its a school holiday )

i decided to make mashed potato! (:

Ingredients:

Potatoes ( russet or yukon golds )

3 tables spoons of butter

1/4 cup warm milk

salt and pepper

1. Skin and cut the potatoes up then boil them.

( then drain them )

2. It be best if you this, otherwise you can just mash it with a fork.

3. Add salt and pepper, butter and milk during the process

4. Scoop them up into cute little rounds.

5. Pour the mouth-watering sauce ( heh, my own recipe ) and there you go!

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photos taken by my lovely lumix TZ7 :D

2010-05-01T20:21:00.002+08:00

i've been cooping up all sorts of my emotions alot alot.

i am damn suffocated.

i need a breather, like now.

rude boy

2010-04-25T21:07:00.000+08:00

i am going to whip up delicious hotdog with butter!

yummmmmmmmms

2010-04-24T21:03:00.002+08:00

my greatest weakness is the fact that i'm run and controlled my my emotions.

when my mood is affected, regardless the situation, it'll affect my actions.

when i'm moodless or moody,

i'll refuse to do anything that i was supposed/planned to do.

and i really hate myself for this.

coz i always can't seem to get things done, with the fact that i'm so emotional.